In My Sleep

In My Sleep - Joe Budden

Baby girl told me in my sleep I was talkin

So it’s only natural I asked her what I said

She said she woke up when she heard

She was so damn tired, she couldn’t make out a word

She said she was trying to see if eventually I would scream the name of a bird

I told her that’s absurd, and then gave her the face like “Word”

And then she replied “Yeah,” said it was quite weird, said she was type scared

I said that’s a side effect that you get when you trade bad dreams for some great nightmares

When I close my eyes, I escape the poltergeist

My escape from reality just what I needed

Brings me to a place where shorty never cheated

And even if she tried and succeeded

In this other world, I wouldn’t even get heated

Fuck the details I don’t care about why

I’m chillin with my grandmother, she ain’t die

I was browsing online and seen Mike on a banner

That said “You can be like me and beat cancer”

Anything I touched, I’d feel

Know it’s fiction but it seems so real

Was leavin out the casino with a nympho

Yes, Ray he can be so simple

Here’s how I resolve a problem with my kin folk

Learned how to build me a house with no windows

And that’s when I think I saw a ribbon in the sky but it wasn’t for my intro

Cuz where I’m at, there’s no rumors

Or gossip but still got love for Miss Info

She said in my sleep I be laughin

But shit be funny to me

Look, my ice cream’s 200 degrees

If it dripped, I get a hole in my dungarees, see

My anonymity is my protection

And me and hip-hop have no connection

Which got me to reflecting

Is that why the mirror won’t show my reflection?

When I close my eyes, there’s no dollars

So we can stretch that one as an excuse

Or why folks do the things they do

Or why people act so brand new

I had wings on, flying out of prison with a ratchet

Was only there ‘cause someone snitched

Look here, no one’s poor but no one’s rich

Just my way of creepin if life’s a bitch

Took a walk on the ceiling just to get my mind right

That was yesterday, so in hind sight

Since I was able to haul off

I took it as God telling me I’d never fall off

Got rid of name brands and the jewelry

Most people just use it as medicine

Like it take ‘em somewhere they ain’t never been

But here you’re better off not better than

Stuck in a room with an elephant

Opened a closet and dapped up my skeleton

Had a convo with a man with no ears

And all the sudden everything became so clear

Have no fear

I just bought a first class trip to nowhere

Everybody goes there

But they don’t stay the whole year

Me? I got 3 hundred and 65 shows there

My girl said in my sleep I be walkin

So I ask baby where I go?

She said I be walkin slow

And she don’t ever wanna get outta bed, so she don’t know

I went to see a man walking on water

Asked if he’d ever get things back in order

I been there 2 years over a quarter

But every time I open my eyes, it’s like torture

He said “Please,

I gave you a whole ‘nother world for you to go do with as you please

Just so you appeased

Mixed with a couple of signs ‘bout real life while you make believe”

So I teleported out of there with a grin

Met a bum with a mansion, invited me in

Then, we politicked about politics

Said something about Def Jam, I ain’t acknowledged it

I went to see a virgin with AIDS

Yea, I thought about smashin that

Yea, ass was fat

So appealing

Tattoo on her in her thigh said she doin better than she was feelin

I think I seen shorty before

Like, maybe in the club or something

Look, maybe in VIP

But wasn’t nobody there but me

And the club was all red

And she started playin with my head

And then I came

Then I asked shorty what’s her name

And it was weird, ‘cause she fucked around n disappeared

Like what a cruel joke

Cig lit but from it was no smoke

Flicked in an ash tray

And seen Stacks’ face

Flashed to a school hallway on a half-day

Was getting chased, couldn’t tell by who

Then the hallway turned into a cliff

Screamin “pff” before I was dead

Somehow I jumped my ass up out that bed

Then baby girl told me in my sleep I was screaming

So I said “That’s a lie”

She put her right hand in the sky

She said, You was, but I don’t know why.

Gotta go, Goodbye